in the sorrow

Tonight, I was mad at I-Chia. I was wondering if every word from my mouth hurts her.

I am regretful for hurting her feelings. But I couldn't help myself to hide all of the anger from her.

I would like to express my feelings. Or that would become the hate. I don't like to hate others.

That is too uncomfortable.

Today, I cried for several times. I am not good, although I feel I am better then yesterday. I am still in the sorrow. I need to start over. Perhaps that is due to my MC is coming. I am not sure.