in the sorrow

Tonight, I was mad at I-Chia. I was wondering if every word from my mouth hurts her.

I am regretful for hurting her feelings. But I couldn't help myself to hide all of the anger from her.

I would like to express my feelings. Or that would become the hate. I don't like to hate others.

That is too uncomfortable.

Today, I cried for several times. I am not good, although I feel I am better then yesterday. I am still in the sorrow. I need to start over. Perhaps that is due to my MC is coming. I am not sure.

depress

I am lonely.

I want to call my mom, but I couldn't.

She might be taking a long nap, she might yell at me. I couldn't sustain that.

That's horrible.

I would like to call my dad, but he is working right now.

I have no friends.

I have some friends, but not so closed.

Am I boring? I was so confused.

I am not good.

I don't want to go out to have my lunch, even I think perhaps I need to eat something.

Who could take me out?

I have no power to make me out.

There is nothing to eat in my appartment.

And actually, I am not hungry.

I just watch the Orange County.

That makes me sad.

I'd like to go to the Sisters' House to move all my stuffs out.

I am going to leaving, although I am not live there any more.

But some stuffs being there makes me not peaceful.

The Midterm technically ends, but I am not happy.

Where goes my joy?